Unpacking my baggage

I've been a little absent over the last week or so. I've just literally been living in paradise. Was in beautiful, beautiful Greece and am now in Bulgaria. Everything is just too nice!!!! I've been taking sunset strolls, meandering around little streets, tasting amazing food and wine and being spoilt rotten. Getting a spa treatment this afternoon at the hotel resort I'm staying at - can hardly wait. I don't feel the need to recount my thoughts right now because I'm completely lost in this world.

The Spanish Steps as got to be one of my favorite places. The shopping is fantastic. I went a little crazy with all the high-end stuff and it was especially painful lugging everything around in the blaring heat, but god does it feel good! A little over-indulgence and a little bit of just honestly enjoying spending time with myself. And yes, fuck, I've become one of those people who post up photos of shit they buy...Soz. On the upside, most of the things I've been blowing my do' on over the last week hasn't been for myself and I'm using my own money/am putting myself in debt via credit card. Nobody ain't gonna buy shit for me, besides me...Or that I'm not going to flaunt my excess - which we will pretend exists in my life - if it's coming from someone else. Where's the fun in not earning what you own?  And I've also come to the realisation that I am not a backpacker. I am not a hostel person. I prefer the peace and comfort of a hotel...

I've only been in Rome for a few hours, but I already know it's going to be good. Firstly, if I ever said Istanbul was beautiful for the little streets and alleyways - Rome fucking kills it in the realms of cobblestoned streets and great breathtaking architecture. Every street and every corner is photo-worthy, and we all know how I pretty much breathe to take photos of streets... Currently staying in a hostel. This is going to be interesting for me. Will I survive or die? Jokes. I am going to have a blast over the next few days. I just know it. I've already planned to spend tomorrow shopping and possibly doing my hair (really?!?!). Only downside is mosquitoes are every-fucking-where I go. WHY?

Waning down to the last morning in Turkey. Have had an absolutely amazing time over the last few days. Way too excited about shopping and not as excited as I should be about seeing the sights i.e mosques and palaces.  But most of all, I have just enjoyed the people. The kindness has just been overwhelmingly heart-warming. Even with my battle wounds in tow (at least a dozen mosquito bites, blisters on feet, hay fever, PMS, eye infection, skin rashes/upper thigh chafing...), Istanbul officially has a piece of my heart. Will definitely be coming back and spending more time here. There is still so much more to see and experience. I'm now just hanging around waiting for the next part of my trip and as July 16 draws nearer, I'm getting every bit more anxious about seeing Cosmin again. How will we act? What would I even say?!?!? It feels so ridiculous that two years of a relationship can come down to this point. I've always said this throughout the last few months - we ...

Friend just read my coffee cup. I'm embarking on a journey to find answers - some questions will be answered and some not.  I will reflect alone, meet new people and emerge with a changed outlook once again. God, I just fucking hope so. We visited the Grand Bazaar today - beautiful shops filled with beautiful things! A whole lot of fucking walking in the summer heat, but I love it. I love it here so much. I have always loved quaint little streets and Istanbul is just the epitome of that. Alleyways with little stores everywhere!!! We crossed the river by ship to get from the Asian side of Turkey to the European side and SHIT, the view was stunning. I love that Istanbul is built on these hills and you can just see all the houses and buildings sitting in the horizon. It's a seriously breathtaking sight. Also went to visit Fatmanur's work today. I was welcomed into her boss' house with open arms. I've just been so looked after since day one, when my beloved f...

Currently sitting in my friend's apartment in Istanbul. Love the sound of a bustling city with cars driving by and people chatting down in the streets. The view over the Bosphorus Bridge was amazing. Here is a photo I've stolen off Google: We're sitting in her place, talking and catching up. We talk a lot about what we've done over the last two years. The home cooked meal was delicious. We've made plans for the next 3-4 days. I think I will fall in love with this city. I'm just so fricking happy to be here right now. Sorry this entry is so erratic and shit.

Hello, I meant to write something a lot earlier but due to procrastination and generally not knowing what to say, this entry is now being written 15 minutes before I board the plane. I don't know what to expect from this trip. All I know is regardless of what happens, I will come back to a new chapter in my life. A fresh start with everything. Will be updating over the next four weeks. Au revoir!