Unpacking my baggage

" I think, therefore I am " - Descartes. Agree/Disagree? Philosopher, Descartes, suggests because we have a mind inside our body that controls our thoughts, feelings and actions, we are therefore, living, breathing, alive. Our mind is our identity. Our body is a mere vessel that carries our mind. But apparently Descartes could be wrong. First, the mind and body is not separate. Second, according to Ahmed, we cannot think and therefore be who we are - purely because how we think and how we are is permanently attached to our surroundings. There is no inner truth, because everything is subjective. It pretty much screws everything up, doesn't it? This whole time, you're thinking you have the complete power to determine the person you are, when essentially, you are a reflection dependent on others and a world you have little control over. We pretend we don't need other people and that every fiber of our being screams out that we are independent and can stand on our own...

Updated AIESEC poster Don: "Kimb, everyday your life is a crisis, filled with decision-making" SO TRUE. Quote of the day. My ultimate weakness is my indecisiveness. I am simply incapable of making logical and rational decisions. Often, what does happen in the end, is that at the very essential last moment, I just opt for the choice with the point of argument to be lingering last in my head. You can totally brainwash me, since I usually end up choosing the worst option anyway. Yeah...my life movie slogan would be something like "Being mentally incompetent - I have it tough like that." I'm not going to go to Canberra for the VSA Youth Night this weekend. I've made this decision (70% positive, 30% still ready to be swayed) because I have commitments - to my friends, to myself, to my education, to my future. It sounds good to say that. Though, you never know, I could just as easily rock up tomorrow morning unexpected. And also, one should never be denied of van...

Posters out! Have barely slept over past few days. Three assignments down and I think I pretty much failed them all. NOT exaggerating. Like today, I had to do a 50 minute presentation with Noeleene. I was talking non-stop. The entire time, in my head I was thinking "Bitch, shut up already". So yeah...the presentation was supposed to be a facilitation, but I hardly gave the class a chance to discuss because I hogged all the talking time... One more day of uni tomorrow until mid-sem breaaaaakk!!!!!!!!!!!! Work, work, work. Need to still go to work and do work despite it being holidays. Sadface.

These flyers are to be printed and released today. Posters coming soon (when I find the time to squeeze them in between my insane schedule and work load).

Old photo shot last year with Maria. God, you do not know how many times I tried to get this shot. I tried black and white film on two separate occasions, before giving up and getting it on digital. Same bed, same pose. SAD. I'll never be the same, if we ever meet again. I'm exhausted. I have a bunch of photos to edit and submit for uni, a CD of photos for a client, a bunch of event posters designs for AIESEC and personal photos to go through and fix up for myself. Why is this so tiring but at the same time, so fun? I think I have a thing for hoarding in all the responsibilities and piling the deadlines upon myself. Such a failure.