Unpacking my baggage

"Please slow it down There’s a secret magic past world That you only notice when you’re looking back at it And all I wanna do is turn around I'm going down to sleep on the bottom of the ocean Cause I couldn’t let go when the water hit the setting sun Cause I couldn’t let go of the passing moment gone" White Daisy Passing - Rocky Votolato Grabbed a formspring account. Am uncertain as to how it'll play out for me. Consider this a trial period. Don't want to publicly display it on Facebook for it'd mean putting on show everything . Will leave it on this site for now. I believe this space of mine is relatively unknown. Should I be making more of an effort to publicise it? I'm not sure if I'm ready for the judgement and feedback on something so intimate and personal to me. I don't want to post everything up on a social networking site and basically, throw praises and congralutions at myself. I don't wish for the passing compliments to provide ...

Did a shoot with Emily this morning. Funtastic! You know what? I always have an amazing time on my photoshoots. I know I'm more than a bit of a nutbag - I'm actually insanity - but the whole process is so much fun. What it's like to be on a shoot with me: CHAOS. I wing it (which is a pretty accurate depiction of my outlook on life in general HAHA). I don't know what type of images I'll be shooting until I'm on location and the inspiration sort of flashes by. Sometimes it's easy. Sometimes it's more difficult; it takes more work than that. It's where my models have to try out millions of different things. BUT, I think those are the best parts. As frustrating as it can be, we laugh like maniacs when we see how shockingly absurd and stupid the poses we can come up with are. Hilarity ensues... So on that note, I just wanted to say a thank you to everyone who has helped me out - from the bottom of my heart. My beautiful models - thank you for being patien...

Ultimate face spammage. The other day, I had another extremely crappy day. For weeks now, I've been doing an exhausting routine of uni, then work, then back to uni for group work OR work, uni, then group work. Tragic, I know. For consecutive days, I'd leave home at 7am and get home at about 12am. On Monday, our group was finishing off our advertising assignment and it was late at night. By that stage, I was pretty much deliriousssss. Exhibit A: Alex and I running down the uni corridors screaming, then proceeding to collapse onto the couches. Exhibit B: Hien and Alex trying to put their legs above their heads. The Mac comp lab became our temporary home. Eventually, we finished the darn thing, cried in joy, and all rushed home. I was at the station and saw that my train was coming in 2 minutes, so raaaan. Thankfully got on in time and just fell asleep. But the next thing you know, I had woken up in the middle of nowhere...There's a train guard standing in front of me, telling...

" I think, therefore I am " - Descartes. Agree/Disagree? Philosopher, Descartes, suggests because we have a mind inside our body that controls our thoughts, feelings and actions, we are therefore, living, breathing, alive. Our mind is our identity. Our body is a mere vessel that carries our mind. But apparently Descartes could be wrong. First, the mind and body is not separate. Second, according to Ahmed, we cannot think and therefore be who we are - purely because how we think and how we are is permanently attached to our surroundings. There is no inner truth, because everything is subjective. It pretty much screws everything up, doesn't it? This whole time, you're thinking you have the complete power to determine the person you are, when essentially, you are a reflection dependent on others and a world you have little control over. We pretend we don't need other people and that every fiber of our being screams out that we are independent and can stand on our own...

Fashion editorial task shot with portable flash. Model: Kathy Top image: Demonstrating a supplementary colour palette Bottom image: Complementary colour palette Editorial task shot with medium format camera + studio lighting Model: Maria Top image: To show use of saturation (through film processing and post-processing) Bottom image: Desaturation I might be over my head A little over my head But I kind of like it I kind of like it This is not what I expected A little over my head But I kind of like it I kind of like it After numerous consecutive weekends of late night outs left exhausted by Sunday - intoxicated or not - I've decided I will be spending the next number of indefinite weekends geek-ing it out. I love the night life but it's weighing me down. But hey, I know I must have done something right when at the end of a drunken high, I'm not crashing into a mess of emo goo. No wailing and sob stories coming out, just general intoxicated bliss that results in deep sleep by...