So I broke up with my psychologist.
The first session was so intensely profound, but the ones after that felt jarring. I think the tipping point for me was when she kept giving me advice about non-psychological things e.g. property locations.
The tipping point was also when she focussed heavily on the plight of interpreters for non-speaking Australians and that I should be more cognisant of that. She was telling me how I should feel and responding to a situation that had never bothered myself or my mum. It started when I told her my mum wanted me to go to an appointment with her so I could drive her and translate for her. The psychologist then spent 1.5 sessions relaying how illegal and wrong it was to do that as she should be getting a professional interpreter through the doctor. I explained it was no big deal as I had grown up doing this for both my parents. It was just the nature of things for our family, but she explained it was unethical and would have been difficult for us. If I'm honest, I never minded and I don't think my parents ever did. If I'm honest, I feel coming from an Asian family, very much collectivist minded and tight-knit, these experiences are normal and in fact welcomed. I get it though and I said I got it, but yet she kept bringing it up again and again.
I had to end it after that as I just felt like she was pushing and projecting her views on me, coming from her own values and background as being an older Anglo-saxan woman. I know she never meant anything mean or disrespectful by it, but I guess I can't help feeling how I feel.
So now I am therapist-less and honestly, it is a bit of a struggle. I have so many emotions I'm carrying inside and I feel as though I am trying to redirect my healing elsewhere. I've recently gotten more into the spiritual side of things (e.g. meditating, synchronicities, spirit guides, readings). I feel I do this in a bid to be understood and heard, to find some sort of meaning in my life and to explain my heart. I know I need to heal, but I just don't know how and through what means this will happen, which also brings me to me to the debate between spirituality and psychology.
How do these things co-exist? Can you be scientific as well as spiritual?
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