YOLO

The last month has been an accumulation of many night outs, that I would generally just group under the umbrella that is YOLO.

I find that going out, keeping myself busy and having company is all that I can do to feel like I am making an effort to move forward.

I have the house to myself for the next month and much more than I realised, the loneliness is intense. So to do everything in my power to avoid being alone and forced to deal with my thoughts, I'm all about YOLO and throwing caution into the wind. I'm all about stumbling my way home in the morning, so the fact that I am sleeping alone again another night isn't too obvious.

Maybe this isn't necessarily the best way to go about things...but screw that, this is what feels right for me in this moment. I don't need reason. I just need peace and if this is the best way I can handle myself and my mind right now, then well, YOFLO.